"Everybody knows/It sucks to grow up...

And everybody does/It's so weird to be back here."

Shannon scanned tons of pictures for me from my childhood, three of which I just posted. And I'm mostly joking when I say "I never had a chance" because in those three pictures, I'm just a baby, really. But when I look at the other ones, ones I haven't yet posted, when I'm a little older, I remember. I was always so sad. I always felt like such an outcast and had no idea the person I was to become. I was so afraid of who I was and being myself and just accepted I was a total loser. I was always so hopeless. And in some of the pictures, I can see that in my face, and I can remember things that happened to me, cruel things kids said. Things that the person I am now would never have allowed. It makes me ache to remember. And I just want to reach in those pictures and give that girl a big hug and MAKE her understand it's not that bad, that she's pretty cool, and that she'll be happy someday. Oh, and also to quit feeling sorry for herself. A hard lesson to learn, that.